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I realized that I’d been doing a lot of blogging about G and the X-Linked Periventricular Heterotopia but I hadn’t talked much about L and the Idiopathic Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension.

Prepare to be educated.

Pulmonary – From Miriam-Webster: a : of, relating to, affecting, or occurring in the lungs<pulmonary tissue> <pulmonary edema>

Hypertension – From Miriam-Webster:  abnormally high blood pressure and especially arterial blood pressure

So, specifically, Pulmonary Hypertension is abnormally high blood pressure affecting the lungs (and heart).

It is not the blood pressure the nurse measures in the doctor’s office. It cannot be managed through ‘diet and exercise’. It is not cheap to treat – medication costs can easily top 100k a year.

It is a terminal illness. That means it will kill you. It is often misdiagnosed with asthma until its almost too late to do anything about it.

The Go-To website to educate yourself about Pulmonary Hypertension is . There’s all sorts of information on there from all parts of this life.

I will hit some highlights though.

– You will often see people say just PH or Pulmonary Hypertension, but please understand that it is a general term. There are many types of PH. What we deal with tends to be specifically Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension.

– Anyone can get it, though its more common in middle-aged women

-(Again) Its often misdiagnosed as asthma because it presents very similarly at first.

-There are three classifications – Idiopathic/Primary, Heritable/Familial, and Associated/Secondary .

Put simply – Idiopathic/Primary means unknown cause. They know that someone has it, but they don’t have an explanation as to why  they have it. 

– Heritable/Familial means that you got it because it runs in your family. There’s got to be a couple people diagnosed with it before its considered this.

– Associated/Secondary means that you have it because something else is wrong with you. Some examples are: CHDs, connective tissue diseases, HIV, etc.

Untreated, the lifespan in adults is generally three years from the time of development.

Untreated, the lifespan in children is generally 10 months from the time of development.

It. is. freaking. scary.

There are three main methods of treatment and often methods of treatment are combined. Remember, these are treatments, not cures. There IS no cure.

Oral – You take a pill (such as Tracleer), or an inhaled medicine such as Ventavis.

IV – You have a continuous flow of medication being pumped into your body 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. If your pump breaks or malfunctions for any reason, you have a limited amount of time to get it fixed before things can get really, really bad. Medications include: Flolan, Remodulin, and Veletri. Flolan and Veletri are basically the same medication, but Flolan has to be kept on ice, whereas Veletri is stable at room temp.

Subcutaneous – Remodulin (It can be administered both ways.)

Imagine having your 3 year old hooked up to a IV pump 24 hours a day.

Imagine having to insert a needle under your 5 year old’s skin, and make sure it stays there for weeks at a time.

Probably can’t imagine, can you? I hope not. I sincerely do.

There’s more that I probably should mention, and I have no doubt that this is hardly the last education post I’ll make on Pulmonary Hypertension. So now, for the personal.

L is a red-headed, freckle-faced little ball of energy. She very much meets each day with an enthusiasm I would love to have. Her perfect day begins and ends with cuddles.  She is amazing. (She’s also a demanding little brat, but that’s beside the point!) We were so scared with her, and at first treated her like a fragile little doll.

Not anymore.  Yes, L is sick. Yes, her disease is considered terminal. But, no, she is not fragile. She’s a stocky little munchkin with too much energy and not enough time in the day.

And yet every morning, if she doesn’t wake up before I do, I’m terrified. Because, you see, her condition could worsen dramatically in the blink of an eye. There is every possibility that if she’s not up before I am that she’s passed away during the night. And I didn’t know. I wasn’t there to try to save her because I was sleeping. Its hard enough to deal with normally, but putting her to bed when she has a cold or other respiratory thing going on just makes me sick to my stomach.

I’m in a group for Family of Children with Pulmonary Hypertension on Facebook. It is simultaneously the best and worst group that I’ve ever been in. Its the best because it is filled with people who know exactly what each other are going through. Its the worst because we share each other’s pain. We are there, virtually holding vigil, as one child after another gets sick, and fights for life. We are there, wishing we could be by another parents side, holding them, when they have to say goodbye to their child. We are there in heart and spirit even if we can’t be there physically.

And it hurts. Oh lord, does it hurt.  Even just thinking about it makes that hot, sick feeling wash over me. We’ve said goodbye to so many kids in the past year alone. I’m ashamed to say I’ve lost count of how many children we’ve lost since I joined the group.

We lost a little one who was doing well, then got sick with a cold… three days later she was gone. From a COLD!!! You cannot believe how ridiculous and scary that is. She died from complications from a flipping COLD! Three days. It took only three days for her to be gone forever.

We lost another little boy who began getting worse gradually. I believe from the start of his downturn until his passing was about 6 weeks. I could be a bit off though.

We lost Molly. Molly is the only one I will name because you can look her up easily because of the Flat Molly project. Click here to see the youtube compilation, and if you’re the crying sort – be warned. Have tissues nearby.

I could go on and on… we lost, we lost…we lost. We’re always losing. We do gain – but what we gain is another PHamily  member that we know we’ll eventually have to say goodbye to. We don’t want to gain any more members.

It gives you nightmares. It breaks your heart.

I’m lucky in the fact that I’ve surrounded myself with a wonderful group of online friends who do their best to understand what I’m going through (even though they can’t), to learn all they can about L’s disease, and promote awareness. They know who they are, and how much I love them.

In particular, though, I have to give special thanks to a great friend named Karlee. I’m naming her because I’m going to shamelessly plug her business in a moment. We were pregnant at the same time. We didn’t really know each other well during the pregnancy, but after L was born, Karlee sort of took up the flag and really was there for me when I needed someone to be there. She still is, to this day. She knows probably as much about pulmonary hypertension as I do. She is always trying to raise awareness on her business page. She makes things and donates them to people who could use them. She fundraises. You name it, she does it. She’s even made hats and scarves for L that were tailored to what she needed at that time.

So if you are looking for handmade goods of the knitted and crocheted variety, you really need to check out She makes pretty much everything you can think of, and she has reasonable prices too.

Here’s an example of one of her cuties.

Custom knit triceratops stuffie in camo - front view.

…and I’m written out. Writing about L’s disease just makes me mentally tired. More to come!